Many times I feel sorry for myself in my loneliness and become envious of many of my friends who still have their spouses and/or also have wonderful relationships with their children and grandchildren. I feel for the most part that I'm way down on the priority lists of my boys (and so often mothers don't have as close a relationship with their sons as they do with their daughters) and that makes me sad. But I try to stop and think about what I have to be grateful for. I do have a home, warmth and shelter from the weather. I have food and clothes and really all that I need. But those things cannot take the place of a spouse, one that you love and know is always there for you, someone who'll drop everything and go wherever it is you want to go. I need to remember all that I've had and all that I still have and give thanks with a grateful heart.